Thursday, December 31, 2009

year in review

2009 came in with stillness, solitude, and a healing heart. I held this ornament in my hands and made a wish.


I did something I had always been afraid of: appeared onstage. I played "Stacey" in the play "A Nice Family Gathering." It was soooo much fun!

dinner scene

I celebrated St. Patrick's Day with a Guinness and took this self-portrait in my compact mirror.


I visited one of my favorite cities: London. I've been there many times before and yet never get tired of it. Here I am by Tower Bridge.

Tower Bridge

I took Leah Profancik's photography workshop, which was a life changing experience. Here is Leah's adorable daughter, Bella, who modeled for the class.


One of my two brothers got married. Here he is with daughters Katie and Ellen.


That wish I made in January? It came true. I met Paul.

My other brother got married. They're expecting a baby boy in May!

I spent Labor Day weekend with Paul and his friends and family, up on their property in Mesick, MI. So much fun!


I finally got to meet Genevieve and her husband, Jon, my friends from Australia. We had such a fun time in Manhattan together, topped off by a fun day with Laura and Annabel in Chinatown.

gen & jon

I turned 40. Goodbye, horrible 30's!


I'm ending this year happier than I could have ever imagined. I feel so blessed and grateful. Here is Paul throwing a snowball at me during our first Christmas together.


Friday, December 18, 2009

a year in the life

anthropologie scarf

I'm feeling reflective tonight.

A year ago at this time, I was faced with some distressing/depressing/heartbreaking/annoying news that made me sit down and take an honest look at myself and the way I was hiding from my life.

I did a lot of thinking and working on my inner self. In April I took a trip to a city I never get sick of: London, which was great. Then my friend died, and that was really awful. After her death, when the shock of it all wore off, I stepped back once again to evaluate things. Quit all the humiliating online dating. Joined a gym and hired a trainer. Began to put myself first and stopped worrying about what might or might not happen. Stripped away all the stupid fakeness and fear that held me back.

I began to plan solo trips and classes I wanted to take, made lists and started to form a picture of how I wanted the next decade of my life to take shape. I geared up for a summer where both my brothers got married within two months of each other, leaving me the sole single person in the family, and I made peace with that. By July, while driving 11 hours home from New Jersey after a fun visit with Laura and her family, I felt calm, free, confident, and balanced. I was single and completely okay with that, peaceful to the nooks and crannies of my inner Lisa. It's the first time in my life I could ever honestly say that.

And then two days later I met Paul.

Coworkers had set us up, and we had been emailing each other for three weeks or so. We met in person on July 9th at East Side Mario's in Livonia. Now, I am the queen of blind dates. I've tried it all - matchmaking, online dating, speed dating, every depressing and frustrating tool that was out there for singles. Unlike the commercials, I never met anyone to skip joyfully down a beach with. The 29 dimensions of compatibility matched me with men who collected buttons, believed the Great Lakes were man-made, wanted to move to Asia because they hated America, or, worst of all, were BORING. On the way out the door, on that warm summer evening where I just wanted to stay home and read under the walnut tree, I told Sophie and Sadie, "well, here goes another waste of an evening."

Except it wasn't. It SO wasn't. And we've been inseparable ever since.

I've been a bit silent on my blog, not really talking about things like I've done in the past. I thought that once I met someone, I'd be spilling all sorts of long, excited blogs, boring people with my nauseating joy. Instead, the opposite happened. I took private time to open up to and cultivate this new HEALTHY relationship. I needed that time away. But now I'm back, and here are a few fun facts: Paul is caring, hardworking, supportive, selfless, giving, and funny. We share a love of microbreweries, food, the outdoors, snow, family, socializing, and campfires. He's everything I've been looking for, and I hope he's in my life for a very long time.

But this isn't an entry about Paul. It's about me. I am proud of myself, of how I handled this year of ups and downs. This will go down in Lisa History as a hugely pivotal year, one which hasn't happened since 1991. I'm proud of all the work I put in, both mentally and physically. I am grateful that finally, FINALLY, the one thing that's been eluding me for so long is now really here. It really is! And tonight, as I sit here coughing up a lung with whooping cough, which I've had for five weeks now, I am truly happy. I haven't been this happy in a long time.

Who'd've thunk it?

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

chilly session

Check out this gorgeous family from a session over the weekend:

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

foggy morning

Here is my niece, Katie, again. She wasn't really in the mood to pose for me, but I begged and whined and told her how much these photos would look like something out of a Twilight movie. She finally obliged. I just love the eerie quality and the pale foggy light.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009



katie fence