Tuesday, January 22, 2008

opening doors


Marian, before rehearsal Monday night.

January is speeding by so quickly, and yet when I think of how much I've been doing, I have no idea how I was able to fit it all in. Many doors are opening. No, I take that back. I am opening my OWN doors for myself, taking advantage of any opportunities that are coming my way. I've been in a depressed, Lymie haze for years, and now I'm waking up and breaking open.

The girls are now living with their mother, as I last reported. I talked to Katie, and she doesn't like anything - where she lives, her new school, her classmates, her teacher. She misses her family, her pets, and her friends. I told her to hang in there and be strong, and that we're doing everything we can on our end. The court date is February 22nd. I'm not sure if the judge decides who gets custody on that date, or if it's to gather information for further deliberation. So a month from today.

Work has been busy but interesting. Our department is now part of another department, which gives us much more room to grow and get promoted. It's definitely a good thing. I'll be traveling more, which I love. I have a trip to Ft. Lauderdale coming up at the end of February. Unfortunately, that's about the time all the college kids go down for spring break. But if I feel like hanging out of a convertible in a bikini, drunk and screaming, it'll work out great.

I'm assistant directing our next show "Murder in Green Meadows." It's a lot of work but very rewarding and fun. Our cast is awesome and does a great job with the creepy script. We open on February 1st, a mere 1 1/2 weeks away. Yikes. We've been rehearsing 3-4 times a week, about three hours a night. Then there's set dressing or construction on Saturdays, plus I have to do the program, flyers, magnets, and marquee. I've barely been home, and when I am, I'm on the computer. My house looks like a tornado hit it.

I joined Weight Watchers online. This is the year. I'm a compulsive eater who uses food as comfort . . . so you can tell how painful these past 4 years have been just by looking at me. It's time I gain back my control and stop medicating myself with food. Weight Watchers teaches you portion control and better planning. I'm also reading other books to figure out foods that trigger my unhealthy eating (everyone's different - you have to create a program for yourself) and just basically working my ass off every day to get better and stay on the program. I'm trying to forgive myself and move on from slip-ups, because no one is perfect. Once the play is over, I'll have more time to get back on the treadmill, which I love. And soon it'll be spring, so then I'll be doing yardwork and gardening. I've lost 13 lbs. so far; I have a long way to go, but it's a start. I'll try to post some of my favorite point-friendly meals here eventually.

And that's about it for now. Lots of big goals that will take awhile to accomplish, but a good start to hopefully a better year!


rosanne said...

I feel for your nieces. Poor girls have been through so much for someone else's issues. I pray that the judge will be able to see what is best for them. As for openning doors for yourself...You GO Girl!! Take me up on a visit when you can. I can't wait to see the show. Take care of you. You are always in my heart.

donna jean said...

i'm so proud of you! you ended on a very positive upbeat hopeful note! yes, it IS going to be a better year!

ps - love the new pic too. castle you have been to?

Genie said...

My weight is an issue too. But my knees won't let me walk. It's really frustrating. I HATE Lyme Disease!

Eating for comfort, or for boredom, or just because... big problem. Congrats on the 13 lb. weight loss! 15 now, right? That would be MONUMENTAL for me! I can't seem to lose anything, I used to be so healthy!

You go girl.