void

Not having a great night here. In fact, it's been pretty crappy. It's 2:00 a.m. and I have to be up in four hours for work. FOUR HOURS.

This photo was taken on Sunday at a lake that was completely frozen over and covered by a foot of snow. People were ice fishing on it; it should have been completely solid. But toward the edge was this huge hole with water in it, and the snow all wrinkled and sunken in around it like a sheet. How does that even happen? It looked like someone had just punched a hole in it and left.

This is how I'm feeling at the moment, like someone punched a hole in me and left. I don't know what to fill it with or even what to do, except stare at it and think, man, Lisa, that's a really big hole. I feel lost and scattered and empty and achingly sad.

And I'm just really, really tired and can't sleep.